쉽게 말해도..

마음 한 구석은 씁슬하다. 정이란건 참 무서우것 같다. 일년 넘게 같이 일하던 동료 한명이 또 다른길을 선택했다. 이렇게 기존에 있던 사람들이 하나 둘 씩 떠나간다. 좋게 풀려서 기뻐하면서, 안녕이란게 서운하다. 매일 내 눈을 즐겁게 해준 동료 굳바이. 같이 일하는 사람과 마음이 맞으면 일하는것도 너무나도 즐겁게 느껴지고, 얼마나 큰 축복인지 난 알고있다.

이럴땐 나도 생각에 잠기고, 돌아보게되는것 같다. 나도 이럴땐 뭔가 해야겠다는 생각이든다. 나의 길은 무엇인가? 이러한 생각들에 깊게 잠겨있다. 열심히 할테야. 그게 무엇이든. 선영아 화이팅이다! ^^

요즘엔 난 매우 행복한편이다. 매일 24시간 내내 행복한건 아니고, 내 일과에 일부는 행복하고, 설레고, 재미있고, 정렬적이고, 새롭고 그렇다. 하지만 이런 나도 내 자신과의 전쟁을하고 있다. 내가 한걸음 걸어가는 길은 너무나도 힘든길이란거를 난 알고있다.

상상

나는 너를 상상해 나를 보며 웃는
너를 상상해 내 손 잡아주는 널 Oh oh
마법을 걸어 내 사랑이 되길
너를 상상해 내 품에서 잠든
너를 상상해 내게 키스하는 널 Oh oh
달콤한 상상을 해

상상 by CN Blue

25 Things

2 5. I'm 25! It's insane! I'm about to embark on another life's journey. I'm going down this path, hoping to find something that will ignite my passion, enjoy life to the fullest, and find the other half that I want to spend the rest of my life with.

So twenty five things about me:

1. I have a younger brother, and five cousins in total, all of whom are younger than me.

2. I love to cook. I love hearing the "chop chop" and the "sizzle" from the pan- it makes me happy!

3. I have a soft spot for anything romantic and thoughtful. I love special events, flowers, and handwritten letters. I still keep all my handwritten letters.

4. I'm nearsighted

5. I'm a Libra

6. I love going to concerts and plays

7. I get rainbow eyes when I smile

8. I'm mellow 90% of the time. But keep disappointing me and you'd wish you didn't. When I say goodbye, it really is final

9. I hate going to the hospital. It has a distinct smell- and I hate it.

10. I have allergic reactions to any type of melon, pineapple, peach, etc. And yet pineapple is my favorite fruit.

11. In elementary school, my dream was to be a Korean pop star. I am now a designer

12. I love to wear cuffed shorts

13. When someone says something rude to me, it affects me longer than it should. I secretly cry when I'm by myself and you wouldn't ever know it

14. I like to recall my day every night before I fall asleep

15. I start a diary whenever I start liking someone. I also start baking when I like someone

16. I can't live without music. I get butterflies when someone sings to me

17. I love to cuddle

18. I don't like gloomy weather. I get depressed when it rains.

19. I get lost even with directions and a navi

20. I LOVE patterns. I LOVE color.

21. I've made a guy cry four times, unintentionally.

22. I love potted plants, herbs, and flowers

23. I often act like I don't care or brush things off like it doesn't affect me. When in reality, it's totally the opposite

24. I believe in second chances

25. I love earl grey tea, macaroons, and scones

TV를 껐네

So I've been obsessively listening to this song. I just love the way it sounds.

널 너무나 사랑해서 난 티비를 껐어
새빨간 니 입술
널 너무나 사랑해서 난 커텐을 쳤어
새빨간 니 입술

널 너무나 사랑해서 난 티비를 껐어
새빨간 니 입술
널 너무나 사랑해서 난 커텐을 쳤어
새빨간 니 입술

내 눈엔 그 어떤 선보다 아름다운 너의 몸매
검은 머리 너만의 향기에 나는 녹네
때론 몰래 응큼한 상상을 해 그러다 욕심이 솟네
티비를 보다가도 거리를 걷다가도
시도때도 없이 난 너를 원해
못참아 어떻게 손만 잡아
딱딱하게 말하지마 니가 날 딱딱하게 만들었잖아
널 너무 사랑해 내 모든 걸 다 주고
니 모든 걸 다 갖고 싶어
더 가까이 널 안고싶어
내 몸을 적시고 엉덩이 토닥토닥하고 싶어

이 밤이 새도록 보여주고 싶어
어제와 또 다른 내 모습에 눈물까지 흘릴거야
이 밤이 새도록 보여주고 싶어
넌 너무 사랑스러워 언제나 날 너무 설레게 만들어

널 너무나 사랑해서 난 티비를 껐어
새빨간 니 입술
널 너무나 사랑해서 난 커텐을 쳤어
새빨간 니 입술

더운데 갑자기 왜 커텐을 왜 쳐
잘 보고있는 티비는 또 왜 꺼?
그런 눈으로 왜 또 분위기 잡아
피곤해 피곤해 그냥 나 잘래
니 품에서 꿈꾸고 싶어 밤새
그만 좀 보채
오늘만 날이 아니잖아 좀 참아
착하지 내 남자 그냥 코 자자
삐지지 말고 내 손을 잡아
어린 애처럼 왜 또 등을 돌려
못말려 너란 남자 정말 웃겨
생각해 볼께 어서 가서 불꺼

이대론 잠 못 자요
넌 너무 아름다워
난 오늘 이밤을 보내기는 아쉬워요
오늘은 안된다고 말아요
그만 그만 그만

널 너무나 사랑해서 난 티비를 껐어
새빨간 니 입술
널 너무나 사랑해서 난 커텐을 쳤어
새빨간 니 입술

널 너무나 사랑해서 난 티비를 껐어
새빨간 니 입술
널 너무나 사랑해서 난 커텐을 쳤어
새빨간 니 입술

나를 설레게 만들어

from 리쌍's TV를 껐네

All the Best

Saying goodbye is never easy. A part of me is filled with sadness, another part of me is wishing for the best. The remainder of the week will be strange. I will give my best.

Thank you so much. Only half of the OG team is left now. You know how you guys made fun of my "I have so much respect for you", comment? Well, I seriously have a lot of respect for you. You've seen me at my best, and also my worst, and enlightened me with encouragement. We might appear a dysfunctional family, but we've shared so many great moments, laughs, and we're the best team E V E R! I wish you only the best! Despite my sadness of losing such a great boss, I am truly happy for you! Take care~

Natural High

Today was a great day! I got a little breather from work, I spent time with my mom, my brother bought us lunch (which is kind of rare), I finally found some red pants, I got to spend time with my lovely chicas~~, I'm listening to Michael Buble, and <3<3<3

It seriously feels so good right now. ^___^ And I can't fall asleep cause I have this naturally high~ Being loved and being able to love is such a beautiful thing. You make me smile. And I hope I make you feel the same way.

"Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando, quando, quando
We can share a love divine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me?
Tell me quando, quando, quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh, my love, please tell me when

Every moment's a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare"

from Michael Buble + Nelly Furtado's Quando, Quando, Quando

So Nice - Olivia Ong

Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
And be a team with me

So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me

Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me

Oh yeah, that would be so nice
I could see you and me, that would be nice

Someone to hold me tight
That would be very nice
Someone to love me right
That would be very nice
Someone to understand
Each little dream in me
Someone to take my hand
To be a team with me
So nice, life would be so nice
If one day I'd find
Someone who would take my hand
And samba through life with me

Someone to cling to me
Stay with me right or wrong
Someone to sing to me
Some little samba song
Someone to take my heart
And give his heart to me
Someone who's ready to
Give love a start with me

Oh yes, that would be so nice
Shouldn't we, you and me?
I can see it will be nice...